the alcohol, it made me think,
and i began to slowly sink
into the carpet, walls, and air.
i knew then, that i was there;
the state of mind that held me back
from fighting against my mind's attack.
but suddenly to my surprise,
i saw you look into my eyes.
so kind, so gentle, so everything;
you were now the object to which i'd cling.
it was all i had ever wanted, and some more,
though i couldn’t help but feel unsure.
maybe i'm reading into this a bit much,
but i only wanted to feel your touch.
a simple hand on my cheek,
that would enable me to no longer speak.
the night kept on, and so did we;
each drink had helped set us free.
it got late, and the liquor diminished,
i realized then, the night was finished.
but while i layed there next to you,
i wondered if you possibly knew
what was happening in my brain,
it felt as sweet as summer rain.
the thoughts drip-dropped and filled my mind
and slowly, i began to unwind.
finally i fell into a beautiful dream,
where the pictures formed in a colorful stream.
while the visions floated through my head,
and i while i layed there on your bed,
all the joy that i had felt
had been exchanged for something else.
it dawned on me then and there,
that only the alcohol had made you care.
i woke up soon to the bright sun
and realized the agony had just begun.